They were lost in conversation, the two of them
On the street as though it were just another day
I had not even seen her for five years
She looked the same, in that brief moment
Before I made myself look away
They might have seen me, or maybe not
It might make no difference at all
Or all the difference in the world
Five years of accumulated pain, and wondering
All resolved in a moment
I was happy for them – am happy for them –
For me the betrayal was always in the mystery
Why such anger? Why friendship so rejected?
Questions I have asked myself every single day
Because there was nobody else to ask
But today was the day of revelation
The first day when I know for certain
That the cobwebs that have covered my heart
Can at last be cleared away, to make room
For whatever may come next