You, being human, have a barrier around you, a kind of semi-permeable membrane. Most of the time the people you meet stay firmly outside this membrane. You talk with them, perhaps work together, share a joke or two, but there is a point beyond which they cannot go.
They have a barrier around them as well which, it is understood, you cannot trespass. Occasionally you will get glimpses of the terrain that lies beyond, but if you are smart you know to keep those insights to yourself.
These walls are firmly established, carefully tended to. We keep them in good repair. On occasion we bring out the plaster and paintbrush to patch up a spot here, cover over a stain there. As we work we usually ignore that wrecking ball sitting in the corner.
The wrecking ball of course is sexual passion — those romantic connections that can spark in a moment, thereby keeping the world populated. You never know when that old machinery will fire up and get to work on some spontaneous wall smashing. It’s exhilarating work, that smashing down of walls, all explosions and flying debris.
Afterward, when things have run their course, you might be left with nothing but a big gaping hole in your wall, one that perhaps provides an unsightly view to your inner world, of some unfortunate pile of dirty laundry suddenly in plain sight.
At which point you grab your spatula and your paintbrushes, and you patiently get to work fixing up the wall.
Secretly hoping, of course, that one day something else will come along and smash into it.
