The wonder of it all

I was going to post a blog that would comment on the election, or perhaps suggest a subtely skewed take on that airplane conversation I had with the young mystery actress. Or else I was going to compose a poem that may or may not be interpretable as a comment on my personal relationship – raising the veil or lowering it, depending upon how you choose to interpret my iambic pentameter.

But no.

Because on the way here, walking back to my computer, I had a revelation. One of those lovely and transcendent revelations that you who happen to be between revelations may find irrelevant and possibly insufferable.

I realize how astonishing it is simply to be here. To breath this air, to think these thoughts with these amazing brains of ours, to feel the joy and pain of physicality flowing through our veins. The accident of a conversation, the poetry of a glance. We truly are such stuff as dreams are made of, as Mr. Shakespeare was kind enough to point out.

I suppose that if we were ever to truly let ourselves realize the full power, the wondrous ecstatic joy of being here – a human being on this planet – we would go mad with the intensity of it all.

And so I allow myself, for just this moment, to tear away the curtain. I let myself admit the sheer delight that fills my heart, the honor I feel to be able to converse, to share converation with you. And you. And you.

I know that it is not cool to admit vulnerability such as this. But I cannot help it. Life is joy, and joy is life, and I am just so incredibly happy to be here with you.

5 thoughts on “The wonder of it all”

  1. Hi, I have similar thoughts from time to time, but sometimes they can lead to exactly the opposite (negative thoughts) – I’ve heard once that it may be a symptom of so called bi-polar depression disorder, but I never treat that symptoms seriously.
    I fully agree, that if you think “of it all”, how universe is interesting and complex, how many things are waiting to discover, how many interesting problems still to solve, how many new things to experience and enjoy, you can get enormous energy and motivation out of it… and then, sometimes.. negative thoughts appear.. you find yourself so limited in brain powers, so incapable of understanding all of it, so you just sit down and cry – why I suck so much, maybe others are better than me, maybe not, you never know, maybe I’m incapable of solving those interesting problems and discover anything etc… now the only thing that can really put you up is – a new solution found, new idea, discovery, and that gives you again that enormous energy and happiness and believe that you can really go beyond your own limitations, and the sun shines again… and again – everything like in a rollercoaster – which is of course enjoyable as well (unless for people with nerves of steel 😉 ) – if you know what I mean!

  2. As I read your blog entry Ken, I suddenly had a funny/silly picture of you in my mind, you running around, hugging and kissing everyone who just happens to be there. It gave me a big smile and a good start for the day. Maybe I should change my habits and read your blog instead of the newspaper in the morning. 🙂

    And maybe you can tell me one time, why you know/think that admitting vulnerability is not cool….

  3. Yes, it was a kind of acceptance speech. Nice observation!

    In response to Tomasz, one of the wonderful things about the human condition is that you always have the option to counter feelings of nihilsm or despair by inventing something new. It can be anything – a poem, a joke, a song, a name for your favorite imaginary pet, a daily blog, or a handmade paper robot. It really doesn’t matter. I find the act of creation to be an uplifting and joyous experience, one that seems to transform and lend flavor to all other experiences.

    Yes, Dagmar, I certainly agree that admitting vulnerability is cool. In fact, it sometimes takes real courage. Unfortunately many people I encounter are far too guarded to agree, and I guess I was trying to sway them just a little bit by slipping that in under their radar.

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